The more I modify the way I look, the happier I notice I am. 5 lone piercings (1 set stretched), a smilie piercing, and now a forward helix piercing. I dye and colour and bleach my hair constantly. I’m finally getting happy with my appearance on occasions. Which is good, but still. I must change who I am in order to feel content- it’s worrying because I thought I’d stopped hating myself- maybe not. Maybe I’ve just found a way to delay it.